.Far from my mind.

I get it all the time...

"How are the wedding plans coming?"

I answer. "Oh they are good. We just ordered flowers, sent out our invitations, and are plugging away."

It is true. We did order flowers. We are plugging away at the details. But wedding plans are not really on my mind... dare I say it?

I am graduating Business School in May. (One week before the wedding). I have a thousand projects to do. Not little projects, big massive, group presentation projects. They  keep me busy beyond belief.

I am also leaving my job of 6 years. Not for any bad reason but because Roger and I are moving to North Carolina. However, since I am leaving, I have to find someone to replace me. I have to prep the Y for the whole summer to make sure they would be fine if we cannot find anyone. This requires scheduling upon scheduling upon scheduling. It is a lot of work and stress.

Since we are moving, we are also dealing with all of "that" stuff. You know, finding an apartment, applying, moving down their, expenses, and of course, getting a job in North Carolina in Accounting. This is the kind of stress that I enjoy but at the same time it is still stress.

Then there are some very personal issues going on in my family. These things I am not at liberty to talk about but they have shaken me and my other loved ones. These problems are the type of problems that I lose sleep over, almost every night. These are the problems that can instantly make me throw up because I am so worried. These are the problems that haunt me as I enter into the marriage covenant with Roger. These problems are the stress that I never wanted to deal with but have been forced to face them.

As you can see, wedding plans are far from my mind. Sometimes, I just want to crawl into a hole and stay there until the world is safe again. I want to forget wedding plans, jobs, moving, and personal problems. I mean don't we all?

I'll keep pushing forward, looking to Him for help, strength, and guidance. After all, once this chapter closes in my life, I am going to miss it? Right?