Chan

"In our world, where hundreds of things distract us from God, we have to intentionally and consistently remind ourselves of Him." Francis Chan

I couldn't agree more with that quote. I am reading Crazy Love by Francis Chan and it is rocking my world. I cannot even explain what God is doing in my life. He is drawing me so close to Him. I just love it.



Have a blessed, sunshine day!

Shame on me

If you were walking around a pond and saw a child drowning you would immediately jump into the pond and save the child. If there were thousands of other people around this pond, you would not simply look at this child and say of someone else will save the child. No, of course not, you would jump in and save the child because it is your duty to help that child. You feel obligated to help a drowning child.

So let's switch gears here...

Why is it that thousands of miles away, there are children dying and suffering because they are hungry and yet no one saves them? Why is it that people can see thousands of sick children on TV and turn their heads and say to themselves, someone else will save them. Why is it that people will jump into a pond and save a child but will not use their powers and gifts to save a child thousands of miles away?

Why do we feel compelled to save a drowning child and not a child that we cannot see? Shame on us, shame on me for not seeing the child that also needs my help. Shame on us for turning our backs and saying someone else will save that child. It makes me sick to my stomach knowing that I have done that and that others that I know have done that. Shame on me.

I have heard it said like this before, " If it[ it being the need to help all] were acted upon, even in its qualified form, our lives, our society, and our world would be fundamentally changed."

Exciting {Uh...} News

I just submitted my midterm paper for my philosophy class. It wasn't as bad as I had thought. I am however at camp and trying to write a paper at camp is like trying to breathe underwater.

I am enjoying my time at camp. I am exhausted. I have been spending some more time with campers this time around. I am really enjoying the relationships I have been building. So on that note I have some news... I was sitting in staff devotions yesterday and Boss told us that they were short 1 girl counselor for Junior High Week 2. I instantly turned to my friend and said I should do it. Of course, they laughed. I mean let's be honest, I have never ever wanted to be a counselor before. It didn't stop me. I walked over to Boss and told him I would do it as long as I get someone to cover my YMCA work that Friday. I am still waiting to get that stuff all figured out but as of now I will be counseling for the first time in my life. I am excited and scared all at the same time. I have been sharing with Roger about how I need to do something. I need to be stretched. This week years ago, changed my life. I am praying that I will be able to change a young girl for eternity.

I have so much to do and cannot write anymore. Keep me in your prayers. This is a huge task and I am nervous but I know that God is calling me to do this.

Continue to change me

I do not have time to post right now. My heart is heavy with so much. I just donated some money to an organization that helps get formula to children in Ethiopia. I cannot explain how God is changing me. When I am able to get my heart and thought together, I will post more.

Lord~
Continue to change my heart. Continue to open my eyes. Show me the need. Make it real in my life. Help me to see ways that I can help others. You are my Father. You are the Father to the fatherless.

Little update

Are we really entering into the 3rd week of July? Wow! I thought that time went fast at camp boy was I wrong. Time flies faster when you are at home. What a summer it has been so far. Here is just a short recap of what has been going on with me...

I have been working 12 hour days. 12 hours straight! WOW! I complained about being tired at camp, I will never do that again. These days are killing me. I come home so exhausted that I just crawl into my bed and hope that I hear my alarm the next morning. What a killer these days have been.

I started my second set of summer class. I thought that they would be easy. However, I was wrong. My health class is all about alcohol which is not a problem. However, the professor did not give us any due dates. Let me repeat. He did not give us ANY DUE DATES. That's right. You work at your own pace and everyone must be completed by the last days of class. If you do not remember I am type A. I cannot handle this no date thing. It kills me. How hard is it to make up due dates for us? So I spent the first day of my class retyping the syllabus with due dates so that I can function.

My other class is in contemporary moral issues. The issue are killing animals, abortion, and being gay. Great. What an awesome class to be a Christian. This guy tears Christianity to shreds. It is really a challenge for me. Right now I am trying to write a 3 page post on why I eat animals and I know I morally justify it. I was up until midnight last night writing and am still struggling to figure out how to answer his questions.

I wish I had more exciting things to report on. I may have figured out the wedding gifts to give out to our guests. I visited the reception hall and started thinking about decorations. I got a free room at the Ramada because they double booked on me. I am going to camp in a little over a week and a half. I am looking forward to this little vacation :) I am waiting for my dear friend Reilly to get to my house so we can spend some girl time together while Roger is playing Gus Macker. Just another weekend at my house...

Wedding Mess

After some very unfortunate events, I found out that my original wedding reception site had been doubled booked and that there was nothing they were going to do about it. They are letting the other bride have that day and I am out on the street. My original wedding date was June 4th but then my wedding planner had talked with another fabulous wedding reception site. However, the 4th was not available so we went with the 25th. This place is beautiful. I prayed and prayed that it would work out and it has until today...

My Maid of Honor informed me that her sister will be graduating highschool on the 25th of June! At first, I was like we will change the date and then my MOH told me not to. She said we would make it work. However, if I kept the wedding on the 25th her family would not be able to attend the wedding. Plus, she would not be able to give her sister the attention that she rightfully deserves. So here is my prayer, my whole heart honest prayer.... that somehow God would allow either May 28th to be open or July 1st. I prefer the 28th but I can live with the 1st. I just can't see myself not spending the morning with my MOH while she is away at graduation. I don't want to put that burden on her.

I know many of you are thinking what about all the other dates in June...*sigh* that is a different story. Roger's brother graduates the 18th and if we got married on the 11th we would not be able to be home in time to see him graduate. What a huge mess this is. Please, please pray for those dates that I listed! I would be so grateful. I understand that God has everything in control but from one almost bridezilla...I am freaking out a tad...