2 Snow Day!

There is something absolutely wonderful about knowing that you cannot go anywhere! All of your plans have flown out the window because you know that it is unsafe to travel. You can't go and pick up a few things at the grocery store so you make due with what you have. You are trapped in your own house, surrounded by family who is also unable to carry on with their schedules. This is the beauty of a snow day. Normally, snow days would ruin everything for me. I hated the fact that I would get up, get ready for school and then find out that they cancelled school. However, now that I am alittle older and maybe wiser, I welcome snow days into my life. Maybe it is because it forces me to be still. I am not sure but I love them! I am SO blessed because today I get my second snow day! This one will be interupted by work in the late afternoon but that is okay. I have all morning to sit around in my PJ's and do whatever I want! God is good to me. He gives me everything that I need! I am not saying that He gave me this storm so I would be able to slow down alittle but I am praise His name for His powerful hand. Two snow days were just what I needed! :-)

:-)

Kettle Corn...
IBC Rootbeer...
Grey's Anatomy...

...I love Snow days!!!!

Grumpy Tuesday

Here is how my Tuesday went...

-Woke up at 6:15 to be in Binghamton by 8:30 for class...
-Sat through 2 classes that I could have VERY easily skipped...
-I wasn't able to eat anything until 2PM...
-2 hours of very hard swim lessons with kids who don't really have any desire to learn
-1.5 hours of studying for accounting knowing that I would have more time since I wasn't going to lifeguard during the night...
-Swim team...48 kids who could care less about swimming.
-Lifeguard didn't show up for her shift...
-Stuck at the Y an extra 2 hours not allowing myself to study
-37 swimmers in the pool. My limit is 20 per 1 guard. Someone "forgot" to tell me about the UPK Swim
-3 boys who were choking each other and wouldn't listen to me...
-1 cell phone at the bottom of the pool
-Cell phone is dead
-Verizon not open past 9PM
-Bed by 10:30
-Wednesday morning...up at 5AM to study for Accounting

Not sure what the Lord is trying to do within me. I thought everything was going fine. I was able to pay off my major debt and now I will have to add back to it. I just don't really know what's going on. Maybe God wants more control of my life? I don't know. I thought He had all control but maybe He thinks differently...Going to spend some time in my devotions before heading off to a very busy day at school. Grumpy Tuesday is behind me. Today is a new day!

What a blessing!

I have been struggling with what to share with you guys on bloggy world so I have decided to share with you 10 blessings that have happened recently in my life.

1- Roger and I were in a little accident and no one was hurt! The car slid off the side of the road, missing a road sign and landed into a snow bank. Roger's car wasn't hurt at all!

2- It cost us $108.00 dollars for the tow truck to pull us 25 feet. We paid the man using my gas money for the two weeks not knowing what was going to come. Roger's parents repaid us for the towing!!! What a blessing.

3- Roger and I had a great dinner with my mom and her boyfriend. We were able to sit and talk and enjoy many laughs.

4- My mom decided to open up a savings account and put money for my wedding. She also will be sending me some money for gas for school! She is being very generous to me!

5- She also gave me some "me" money. She wrote me a check so that I can shopping and a get a new outfit!!!! She is the greatest!

6- With my tax return money, I was able to pay off most of my credit card debt! I sent in 1,411.36 dollars to my credit card company! I am planning on not having a credit card balance as of June 2010!!

7- I was able to enjoy a nice quiet Saturday morning with Roger and his family. I was able to sleep in until 9!!! Such a blessing :-)

8- All of my lifeguarding problems have come together and it looks like I have everything in place. Of course, this was only done by God's help!!

9- I had a great time at church this morning. I was able to watch the teens at FBC serve God while they did the morning service. Double bonus, I was able to come home and listen to Jim preach an outstanding message to his home church.

10-I am currently sitting in my living room watching Jaxon play on the floor and the rest of the us are sitting on couches dozing in and out of a nap!

What a great past couple of days. I see God working in my life. What a blessing!

New Church-Mixed Feelings

I was sweetly reminded by Roger that is has been awhile since I have posted anything to my blog. Normally, I would say that it is because I am way too busy but the last couple of days I haven't been busy at all. I have been enjoying some days off from school by spending time with Roger and my family. It has been a real blessing to be at home and have no where to go!

Roger moved to Cortland about a month ago and we have been struggling to find a new home church. The church that I grew up with and loved has changed. It is not the same church that I feel welcomed at or enjoy going to. I believe that that church will do great things for the Lord's ministry but I do not feel like it is where we should be. We both love Roger's home church in Norwich. It is everything that we look for in a church, but it is an hour away. We talked about commuting to that church every weekend but that did not suit us. So we decided that we would try some other churches in Cortland. This past Sunday, we went to Grace Fellowship. The church is brand new and gorgeous. It used to be the old Homer Baptist Church so we figured we would give it a try. The people were very friendly. The music was not at all what we were used to. The message was good but very simple. Roger said that it seemed like he dumbed down the message and neither of us enjoyed that. Some parts of their service seemed to just be a show. It didn't seem genuine. Not that this is a big deal, but their offering plates were actually bags...just a tad different. And what really made us decided against the church was the fact that my birth father Mark attends the church. I did not know that going into that Sunday but once we were sitting there I instantly spotted Mark. So we decided not to return to that church. We are now on a quest for another church... We know that we need to be in a church setting so we will not give up. However, it is really hard to look for a church when you know that there is a perfectly good one only an hour away...

Logical Progression

Have you ever agreed to something that shakes you to your very core? The idea of it makes you want to run and hide because you know that you will never amount up to what you should. It's new territory and it's scary, very scary. Everyone has to go through these moments at sometime in their life. If they never did, life would be uninteresting. It's these moments that help mold you into what you need to become.

So what am I overwhelmed with? I know you are dying to know! ;-) Marriage. Yes that is right, getting married. I agreed to marry Roger for more reasons than I have time to write. But just because I agreed doesn't mean that I am not screaming on the inside because I am terrified. I am not scared about planning the wedding because planning is pretty much my middle name. I am not scared to find an apartment and settle a house. I have been dreaming of what my first apartment would look and feel like. I am not scared of having to take care of Roger. I am excited to do his laundry, make him soup when he is sick, and clean up his little messes around the house. I am even not really scared to cook because when all else fails I know that I can just order a pizza and Roger will be fine! No, those things do not scare me. I am excited and I welcome them into my life. I am scared about the things that come after marriage...

Roger has a friend from high school that recently told us he and his fiance were expecting. Over the past couple of weeks our conversation has been based on that topic. Children. Normally, we chat about what his friend will be like as a dad or how the kid will turn out but yesterday we talked about us having a child. Now we are not talking about getting pregnant out of wedlock for we do not believe that is right, but in the future we will have kids. (Also, I am not here to condone anyone, I believe God gives grace and forgiveness to those who may have had a child out of wedlock). And the future, the part after marriage, the time when it is our turn to have a child, that scares me. I have these great visions of Roger coming home from work and taking our son outside to play ball because as a young child that is what Roger's dad did with him. It is a great memory that Roger has of his youth. I am not actually scared to have a son ( I know that may change) but I am terrified of having a daughter. For the sake of this post, I am not going to go into detail with my childhood so let's just say that I did not grow up with a Father figure. Likewise, Roger's household is all boys besides his mother. Neither of us have seen that connection between a father and daughter. That is what scares me. I want so desperately to create that Father/Daughter bond. I want to come home and see Roger cuddled up with our daughter watching the latest Disney movie because their bond is so strong. Even this picture in my mind brings tears to my eyes! The idea of having children scares me. The idea of having a daughter scares me. The idea that I am held responsible for my child's spirituality scares me enough to not want children.

Maybe you are thinking that I am crazy. How are you engaged and thinking about the idea of having children? Maybe you are thinking that I should not be scared about having kids but scared about getting married. ;-) But you need to understand who I am. I am a planner. When I said yes to Roger, I said yes to someday being the mother of his children. I said yes to more things that I know I said yes to. All of these things are just a logical progression in my head. So today, in this moment, I am scared of having children, but that's not to say that this time next week, I am scared of walking down the aisle. Everything changes from time to time and this is what I am stuck on right now.

Subway Blessing

I have so much that I want to write but I am not in "the mood" to write. However, I wanted to share with you my subway blessing! The other day I was driving to school and I heard a short clip on FLN about how God wants to bless you everyday, but we rarely ask for it. So I asked for it. I prayed that God would bless me today. I didn't say how I wanted to be blessed (like most of us do...) I just asked God to bless me in my day today. Well on my way home from school I was starving! I mean so hungry. I had foolishly skipped breakfast and forgot to pack snacks to take to school. So I decided around 2:00PM to stop at Subway to grab a sub. Unfortunately, I was going to put this purchase on my credit card because of some negative numbers in my bank account (oops!!). Normally, I do not put these little purchases on my account but I wasn't going to be home until 9:30PM so I needed to eat. So I ordered my sub just the way I like it. I get to the end of the line and hand her my card. She ran it through...again and again. I thought my card was being declined because it never went through!! She assured me that it was not my card but that their credit card machine must not have been working. She asked me if I had any cash and I did not have any on me so she said "look's like your lunch is free today!" That's right I got a free sub for lunch!! The Lord knew that I did not want to put this purchase on my card and that my bank account was empty and He provided for me! What a blessing! :-) So why not ask God to bless you today?!?! You may be surprised!!!