Discovering...

After hours of pondering, I have figured out how I am going to start my new devotional quest. As I said previously, I have been struggling with the idea of Jesus. For so long I have been defining Him by the way I feel. So if I had a bad day, I would assume that God was not there for me and so on...However, that is not true, God does not change in purpose or character. So my thought was who is God? Not who is to me or who is to you, but who is He according to the Scriptures? And then it all feel into place...

I am starting in Matthew. I will read a chapter a day. I will journal about who Jesus is according the scriptures. Now, I am not an expert by any means. I do not claim to be a Bible scholar but a seeker of the Word and Truth. So let me share with you what I found in Matthew 1.

Matthew 1:1-17 was the genealogy of Christ. It was a tad boring I must say. But what I learned is the Christ was human. He had a family. He had a past that was recorded. Things that I knew but was still good to learn again.

Matthew 1:17-25
"This is how the birth of Jesus Christ came about: His mother Mary was pledged to be married to Joseph, but before they came together, she was found to be with child through the Holy Spirit. Because Joseph her husband was a righteous man and did not want to expose her to public disgrace, he had in mind to divorce her quietly. But after he had considered this, an angel of the Lord appeared to him in a dream and said, "Joseph son of David, do not be afraid to take Mary home as your wife, because what is conceived in her is from the Holy Spirit.She will give birth to a son, and you are to give him the name Jesus,because he will save his people from their sins." All this took place to fulfill what the Lord had said through the prophet:"The virgin will be with child and will give birth to a son, and they will call him Immanuel"—which means, "God with us." When Joseph woke up, he did what the angel of the Lord had commanded him and took Mary home as his wife.But he had no union with her until she gave birth to a son. And he gave him the name Jesus."

From this passage, I learned four things about the God of all Creation.
1- He was our Savior. Before he was even born, he was predestined to save us. An angel appeared to Joseph and told him that the child that Mary was carrying would save us from our sins.
2- Full filler of Prophet's past teachings. With His birth, he had fulfilled all of the Old Testament Prophets. This man is no joke!
3- Jesus is Immanuel which means God with us. He is with us all the time. His name means what it means. We were told that we would call Him Immanuel before He was even born. Amazing,
4- He is a miracle in Himself. He was born to a virgin. He was a miracle before hew as born but still this is amazing to me. Yes the Lord of all Creation did miracles but He was actually a miracle!! Amazing.

I am amazed. It's the truth. I am so excited for this new study. I know that it may not be the best way to study the Bible but it works for me. I am loving digging into my Bible now. I am excited for tomorrow...

...hmmm...

I keep hitting my delete button.

I do not know what to write.

I want to blog though.

I feel like there must be something on my mind to share.

I am finding nothing.

Oh well, maybe another day?

Yes, maybe another day...

Semester Over!

The last day of the semester has finally come. I am proud to say that I have successfully completed my first semester at Binghamton University. It is a wonderful feeling!! When the semester is over I always have these great ideas about what I should do with all of my "free" time. Granted, I still have to work 40 err 50 hours a week but I really don't mind. Over my break I know that I will do the usual, sort through all of my clothes, rearrange my room, spring clean my room, and put away all of my old text books. They will be organized of course in a handy tub. It is pathetic I know. I really can't help it!

Anyways, what I am most exciting about it digging back into my Bible. I heard this quote once that went something like this, "we need to stop defining God by our feelings but by the Word of God." I am excited because for so long I have taking my experiences and emotions and put them into who God is but over my winter break I have decided to search the Word of God to see who God really is. I haven't really developed a plan yet as to how to act this but it will come to me. As for now, I know that tomorrow I need to buy a new journal to keep track of my new findings about God. Don't worry though, I will share my thoughts along the way...

Ahh... I love the end of a semester!!

Anticipation...

I love waking up early in the morning when everything is so still. Everyone is asleep, no one is running around getting ready for school or work. You rarely hear cars on the road heading to their destinations. No it is quiet. It is peaceful. It is the morning. This morning I found myself awake once again at an early time. At first I thought I was sick but that's not the case. I believe that my anticipation has gotten the best of me. Let me explain...

Last night, I went to a wedding for one of my friends. It was beautiful. I sat besides the love of my life and my best friend Shannon. Shannon and I instantly starting talking about our weddings. We critiqued what we saw Lora choose for hers and offered our suggestions to each other. When Lora walked down the isle, our eyes were glued to Chris, her groom. His face was priceless. I love watching the groom. Shannon and I cannot help but think of our own loves and how their faces will look on each of our wedding days. We were emotional through the ceremony and cried when they had their first kiss. It was beautiful. So this morning, I woke up with thoughts of wedding plans on my mind. Do I want Kelly Green or Watermelon dresses? Or both?! :-) I want a bright summer wedding. I want bright colors. I want to make a statement not to prove anything but just a statement that this is my wedding. I want to start to plan a wedding. I want get married sooner than a year and a half. There are a lot of wants in my wedding wish list but for now I am content with anticipation. I enjoy thinking, dreaming, and creating ideas in my head about my wedding. I love thinking about spending the rest of my life with the one I love so much. But for today, I will be content. I will be content in the moment while I have a wonderful lovely boyfriend. I will be content knowing that I am one of the lucky ones, being able to find love. I will be content with ideas and daydreaming. I will be content knowing that I will be engaged sometime. I will be content with anticipation...

What to say?

I have been itching to blog since it has been over a week and a half since my last post, but as I sit here to blog, I cannot think of anything to write about. I am exhasuted. I am emotional. I have nothing left to give. I am hoping to make it through these next 2 weeks then I will want to blog. I am sure of it! So just hang on and be patient. I will post again!! :-)