Disgusted-

I am disgusted.

Completely disgusted.

As you know, Roger and I moved to North Carolina without jobs. It was a scary thing to do but we are trusting that God will provide. And He has, I have been able to find temporary work guarding at a country club. And this is what disgusts me.

The country club that I guard for is for member's only but to be a member costs a pretty penny. To be a member of this country club, the fee is well over $20,000. Yes you read twenty-thousand dollars. It is some ridiculous high end country club. Everyone drives a BMW or more expensive cars. Children run around with their parent's credit cards going up to the food stand demanding service. They feel privileged. I feel pain for them.

The lifeguards that I guard with are just as bad. They also drives BMW's and feel like the world owes them everything. Yesterday, I had to listen to a few of the girl guards talk about their shopping habits and how they can drop a thousand dollars of Daddy's money in just a few hours.  They have no respect for adults and feel like swear words are the only way that they can communicate.

And here I am, in my little corner, and the only thing I can think about it is how this is all a waste. Children are dying overseas, they need water and here we are spending thousands of dollars on country club memberships. And I know that many of you reading this do not belong to a country club but it always makes me think about what things on my level am I buying that isn't a necessity?

It's a nice reminder for me to put things into perspective. I just feel so disgusted and I have no idea what I am supposed to do with these feelings. I love that He puts these things in my path so that I am forced to look at what is necessary in life.