Tuesday, December 14, 2010

In Control

The semester is over and I have found myself with some free time so I picked up the Beth Moore book that my sweet friend, Tiffany gave me. I am still reading the book and today it really convicted me. Let me share a section that I just read...

"People who are chronically insecure {that's me} often have an overwhelming tendency to become control freaks. Upon serious consideration, that inclination makes perfect sense. We feel more secure when our environment is in control, and since no one is able to control it to our satisfaction, we decide we have to do it ourselves. If someone who do it and do it right, we wouldn't have to take over, so its not really our fault, we reason. It's our responsibility."

Right to my heart. It's like Beth stepped into my life and documented every minute of it. I am a control freak. Did I just admit that? I mean to a point that it is sinful. I feel all of this extra pressure because I have to do it right and I have to do it right then.

I have been stuck in the huddle. I know that I am a control freak but how do I release the grip on my life? It's easier said than done. I will start by honestly praying to the Lord who is in control of my life to change me. I need to change. I need to get out there and start the fight to end this war in my life.

Pray for me?

1 comment:

KalynBrooke said...

I'm in the middle of reading that book too! Almost finished with it actually. It's excellent! Will be praying!