Christmas

Christmas has always held a special time in my heart...

The memories that I have shared with my brothers are priceless...

The times I have crawled into my mother's bed and just talked is so meaningful...

I will always remember not waking up my youngest brother so my middle brother and I could sneak up and look at all the presents without getting caught...

I will always remember making sure the coffee was made before we were allowed to wake up my mom...

I will always remember the first Christmas that we didn't get to spend with my brother due to the Air Force...

I will always remember the emptiness that even now I still feel towards this holiday...

I will always remember this Christmas, as it is the last Christmas before I am married...

{Sigh}

It is the last Christmas that I will spend with my family before I am married. I have mixed emotions. I am not sure how to bring our two world's together to make our Christmas special. I am not sure how I will feel when my mom isn't there to hand us our presents. I am not sure how Roger will feel with his brothers not by his side. It is the uncertain of it all that scares me the most. On the other hand, I am ecstatic to make our own traditions. Will we have a special breakfast? Will we read the Christmas story together? Will we hide our stockings? I am ready to make Christmas our own next year. I am ready to make it feel special. I am ready to feel like a family.

Christmas will always hold a special place in my heart and I cannot wait to see what memories I tuck away this year and for the years to come.

Merry Christmas, Everyone!

Happy Birthday, Savior!!