.Two Feelings.

23 days until we officially move to North Carolina. Honestly, I am besides myself with excitement and then scared out of my mind. Let me try and explain my feelings from both sides.

Scared out of my mind~
I am moving to a completely new area with my new husband. Luckily, my best friend and her almost hubby are in the same area. However, I am leaving behind my family, friends, and amazing job. I hate the fact that things will not be normal. I will not know where Wal-Mart is, who to get my hair cut with or what mechanic to go to. I am also terrified because I have not find a job yet. Don't get me wrong, I have applied and applied but have not had any luck... I am getting nervous because the accountant in me doesn't see how these numbers will add up. Roger and I are diligently saving but still it is a huge expense to move.

I am also struggling with the idea of not being around my mom. I know that we are called to "leave and cleave" and we are doing that. But recently, we found out that my brother Nathan will be going to Afghanistan for 6 months starting in August. The fact that I cannot be around my mom during this extremely hard time in her life, is killing me. (Pray for my family!)

There are just so many scaring things that come with moving to another state but at the same time there are also some exciting things...

Besides myself with Excitement~
What you may not know is that my husband and I are living in a completely furnished apartment without most of our stuff. All of our wedding gifts and my kitchen items are in storage and frankly I am going crazy. Just tonight, I pulled apart 4 boxes just to see and remember what we have been given or have purchased for ourselves. It is very frustrating to make dinner and know that you have a garlic press but that it is in a box miles away. I am so thankful for our living situation but really am getting anxious to  have all of our belongings back.

I am also looking forward to the fact that I can settle our home. I have so many ideas for our kitchen and bed room. I just want home to feel like our home. It is very natural to feel this way after you get married but I have been married for a month and haven't been able to settle anything. It will be nice to finally have everything in one place.

I would be lying if I didn't say that I am super excited to move to the same area as my best friend, Shannon! God has been so good to us and our friendship and the fact that He is allowing both of us to be in the same area is just well amazing. Her almost husband and my husband get along great and we really enjoy spending time together. I look forward to going to their place for dinner and having them over, to more coffee and lunch dates, to just hanging out and getting to know our area and to possibly settling into the same church together. So much excitement!

So you can see my divide? Can't you? Please keep us in your prayers. We are set to move July 17. I am sure I will blog before then but the longer people pray for us the better!