Anticipation...

I love waking up early in the morning when everything is so still. Everyone is asleep, no one is running around getting ready for school or work. You rarely hear cars on the road heading to their destinations. No it is quiet. It is peaceful. It is the morning. This morning I found myself awake once again at an early time. At first I thought I was sick but that's not the case. I believe that my anticipation has gotten the best of me. Let me explain...

Last night, I went to a wedding for one of my friends. It was beautiful. I sat besides the love of my life and my best friend Shannon. Shannon and I instantly starting talking about our weddings. We critiqued what we saw Lora choose for hers and offered our suggestions to each other. When Lora walked down the isle, our eyes were glued to Chris, her groom. His face was priceless. I love watching the groom. Shannon and I cannot help but think of our own loves and how their faces will look on each of our wedding days. We were emotional through the ceremony and cried when they had their first kiss. It was beautiful. So this morning, I woke up with thoughts of wedding plans on my mind. Do I want Kelly Green or Watermelon dresses? Or both?! :-) I want a bright summer wedding. I want bright colors. I want to make a statement not to prove anything but just a statement that this is my wedding. I want to start to plan a wedding. I want get married sooner than a year and a half. There are a lot of wants in my wedding wish list but for now I am content with anticipation. I enjoy thinking, dreaming, and creating ideas in my head about my wedding. I love thinking about spending the rest of my life with the one I love so much. But for today, I will be content. I will be content in the moment while I have a wonderful lovely boyfriend. I will be content knowing that I am one of the lucky ones, being able to find love. I will be content with ideas and daydreaming. I will be content knowing that I will be engaged sometime. I will be content with anticipation...